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UWOOO BUZEN UWOOOOOWOW
IM JK ILL CHANGE THIS TO ANOTHER SHITPOST I JUST WANTED IT ON HERE DONT KILL ME DANA
IM JK ILL CHANGE THIS TO ANOTHER SHITPOST I JUST WANTED IT ON HERE DONT KILL ME DANA
IM JK ILL CHANGE THIS TO ANOTHER SHITPOST I JUST WANTED IT ON HERE DONT KILL ME DANA
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[well this doesn't surprise him since buzen still calls libby, libby-san. thinks about how that made rang so mad he told buzen to drop the honorific for his own name
he accepts the spoon and sits next to buzen,]
Fukuzawa's soft on him because of his savior complex. He said the same thing to me, you know? That I deserved to be saved, no matter what.
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[eats another spoonful of pudding]
There's nothing wrong with you. Fuku-sensei probably means well by it, but it's kinda rude.
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rang like math memeing 'what are we' we have come full circle dana, he does snort a little at what buzen says though.]
You and D are the only people I've met who would say that about me. [eats some pudding,
well yuri too, but she's biased. actually d is too?]
And D only thinks that way because I'm a gumiho.
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but he does think of rang as one of his gous so it's pretty much the same thing.]
Mm... My scale is a little skewed, because you're part gumiho. [does remember that rang is half] But I'm human-ish, so it's similar. I think it's important to see people for all of who they are.
And maybe I'll say there's nothing wrong with Si-san, if I get to talk to him... but it doesn't change he's a threat.
Like how I thought you were a threat... and I'll always eliminate threats.
[rang saw his memory, after all]
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he makes a little face at the mention of his inuyasha hanyou status, then leans back in his chair, the hand that's not clutching the spoon tucked behind his head,]
It's annoying that we have to rely on the others to do it.
[he doesn't doubt that buzen will hesitate, even if he thinks buzen should have the chance to.]
I didn't tell Froggystyle to win just so someone else can ruin it for them.
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[because buzen can survive it. has survived it. it's a little wild that they're asking a bunch of kids and wolfwood to carry that weight. even if ylfa is the bravest. even if haru has chosen this path. it's a lot.]
... but I don't think any of us meant for that, for them.
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...I know you didn't want to lose. [because buzen never wants to lose] But did you want to win?
[the game, he means]
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... want to? Yeah. I have people I want to see again. [the rest of his Gous.... he loves matsui, but buzen is under the impression that all gous love each other equally. the amount of affection he has for matsui is truly extended to each of their weird little found family.]
But did I expect to? No. [he smiles faintly, a little ruefully]
You were one of the first people I told... about wondering if it'd be fair, as someone so long-lived, to want to win amidst people like Ylfa who barely made it to double digits.
[it was their first pc, funny enough]
I think Matsu and I... We've never talked about it. But I think we were just trying to see how far we could go, how much time we could get together. That's about it.
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and then he ended up on buzen's team anyway,]
I see.
[there's no trace of anger or annoyance, because he HAD known from the start]
I wouldn't have minded winning either. But it was the same for me -- I wanted to see how far I could go. Not that I expected it to be very far.
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You'd rather live honestly as you are then pretend for the sake of anybody else, huh?
[just thinking about how
rang was so openly insane even amidst all these squishy humans]
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You know, you have a habit of making me seem better than I am.
[it's okay u can just say that rang likes being insane? he's smiling though,]
I've done a lot of pretending. But I don't like doing it for a long time, and seven weeks is definitely too long.
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If I do that, it's not on purpose...
But I think that makes sense. Sometimes we have to pretend for way too long... Weeks, months, years... I wouldn't do it if I didn't have to either.
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[he remembers kokobo...]
...Maybe you should have pretended to be human here too.
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[he laughs a little bit, sheepish]
They already knew I was hundreds of years old. Or that I was too few years old. [3 or 800+] So... maybe it was a little selfish, to give up pretending that fast.
Some people still treat me as human anyway.
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eats some more of buzen's pudding]
That must be frustrating. [ew, imagine being assigned human...
...he peers at him, wait]
Does that frustrate you?
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[to be mistaken as one of them]
I think if people knew what I am and was capable of, they'd be more likely to be scared of me. And I don't want that either.
[rang said jokingly that buzen is one of the most dangerous people in the graveyard (but dangerous meaning cute) and buzen agreed. buzen did not mean cute]
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And here? Since people know who you are -- but still treat you as human. Do you like that they don't see you as a weapon?
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... I kind of expect it... It can be hard for them to wrap their heads around, after all.
But I think it's more accurate to see me as... something in-between. I'm a weapon, I'll always be a weapon, but I'm also... more than just a weapon.
[he looks over at rang]
What about you? You don't let them forget... but do they slip up anyway?
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he squints like he's thinking about it,]
Most of them do, in really stupid ways. I don't care about being teased by people I like, but some people really think I won't do anything to them if they take it too far. Or they assign human things to me, like being interested in sex or relationships.
[STOP ASSIGNING HIM SLUT HE'S JUST AN ANIMAL]
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But Matsu and I kiss and stuff, but we're not completely human.
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[humans can actually poly too but no one in this game taught buzen this or maybe eiden did in ur pcs bc if so then thank u eiden]
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[shrugs and eats his pudding]
Yuyu-san said it's fine to love more than one person though... so I'll just do that. I think it makes sense, to just try to sift through and see what human things make sense for me and which ones don't.
You're not human, Rang, and neither am I. But aren't we both kinda human-like sometimes?
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he furrows his eyebrows a little, expression annoyed]
...I'm not like them or you. You have Matsui -- and you can love other swords. And humans have each other.
I would never love a human, not when they die so quickly. Or even another spirit -- not when they can't accept that I'm half.
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What makes you think a spirit couldn't accept you for that...? I can understand - wanting to avoid the heartache of loving a human.
[not enough to actually resist it eyyy suki]
But I accept you for everything you are... I'm sure I'm not alone.
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No one's like you. You accept everyone.
[he says it matter of factly, buzen is an outlier and shouldn't be counted,]
It doesn't matter anyway. I'll never love anyone.
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