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[hasteful]

[he tilts his head at that, confused.]

If I do that, it's not on purpose...

But I think that makes sense. Sometimes we have to pretend for way too long... Weeks, months, years... I wouldn't do it if I didn't have to either.

[foxicide]

For the sake of your mission, right?

[he remembers kokobo...]

...Maybe you should have pretended to be human here too.

[hasteful]

... I didn't want to.

[he laughs a little bit, sheepish]

They already knew I was hundreds of years old. Or that I was too few years old. [3 or 800+] So... maybe it was a little selfish, to give up pretending that fast.

Some people still treat me as human anyway.

[foxicide]

[rang makes a face at the mention of the profiles bc wow they really did out them just based on their age.... imagine being shenhe in ur twenties and being nonhuman but everyone thinks ur human wow she's so lucky,

eats some more of buzen's pudding]

That must be frustrating. [ew, imagine being assigned human...

...he peers at him, wait]

Does that frustrate you?

[hasteful]

No, it makes missions easier.

[to be mistaken as one of them]

I think if people knew what I am and was capable of, they'd be more likely to be scared of me. And I don't want that either.

[rang said jokingly that buzen is one of the most dangerous people in the graveyard (but dangerous meaning cute) and buzen agreed. buzen did not mean cute]

[foxicide]

[DANGEROUS BC HE LETS PEOPLE'S GUARDS DOWN!!!!! and bc he is cute yeah]

And here? Since people know who you are -- but still treat you as human. Do you like that they don't see you as a weapon?

[hasteful]

[he tilts his head]

... I kind of expect it... It can be hard for them to wrap their heads around, after all.

But I think it's more accurate to see me as... something in-between. I'm a weapon, I'll always be a weapon, but I'm also... more than just a weapon.

[he looks over at rang]

What about you? You don't let them forget... but do they slip up anyway?

[foxicide]

[he nods to the first part because it makes sense, maybe buzen and matsui wouldn't be leading such lives if they were only weapons, but instead here they are, as more than, as the in-between.

he squints like he's thinking about it,]

Most of them do, in really stupid ways. I don't care about being teased by people I like, but some people really think I won't do anything to them if they take it too far. Or they assign human things to me, like being interested in sex or relationships.

[STOP ASSIGNING HIM SLUT HE'S JUST AN ANIMAL]

[hasteful]

[ ? ]

But Matsu and I kiss and stuff, but we're not completely human.

[foxicide]

Didn't you say that people assumed you were lovers just because of that? Or that you're only supposed to love one person, because that's what humans do?

[humans can actually poly too but no one in this game taught buzen this or maybe eiden did in ur pcs bc if so then thank u eiden]

[hasteful]

Oh, but we are lovers. So I guess they're kinda right. I do love him, even if it's in a way that's slightly different from humans.

[shrugs and eats his pudding]

Yuyu-san said it's fine to love more than one person though... so I'll just do that. I think it makes sense, to just try to sift through and see what human things make sense for me and which ones don't.

You're not human, Rang, and neither am I. But aren't we both kinda human-like sometimes?

[foxicide]

[rang like wow buzen has come so far from being love cursed with me

he furrows his eyebrows a little, expression annoyed]

...I'm not like them or you. You have Matsui -- and you can love other swords. And humans have each other.

I would never love a human, not when they die so quickly. Or even another spirit -- not when they can't accept that I'm half.

[hasteful]

[ . . . he tilts his head at that]

What makes you think a spirit couldn't accept you for that...? I can understand - wanting to avoid the heartache of loving a human.

[not enough to actually resist it eyyy suki]

But I accept you for everything you are... I'm sure I'm not alone.

[foxicide]

[the way this is so sweet and exactly why itsuki fell into kiss kiss yan fall in love with buzen,]

No one's like you. You accept everyone.

[he says it matter of factly, buzen is an outlier and shouldn't be counted,]

It doesn't matter anyway. I'll never love anyone.

[hasteful]

[ . . . tilts head even more confused]

Why not?

You clearly like people fine, even if you deny it and get weird about how you show it.

[foxicide]

[he makes a face]

Don't just call me weird.

[he feels like it's perfectly normal??? no he knows it's weird]

That's what I've decided. I can't love anyone as long as my brother's alive.

[hasteful]

[ . . . once again:]

Oh. Why?

[foxicide]

[eats the last bite of buzen's pudding hmph]

That's just how it is.

[it's the holds up fingers brocon]

[hasteful]

My pudding...

... hard to focus on more than one thing at once or...?

[foxicide]

[


he gets him another cup....]

He loved me once and abandoned me. The same thing will just happen again.

[hasteful]

Thanks!

[pudding! he'll open it up but also just. immediately offer it up to rang to have]

But that's too pessimistic. You live so long. You just gotta get it right once.

[foxicide]

[he'll take a scoop... and stick it in buzen's mouth,]

I don't want to get it right.

[hasteful]

[eats it!

but he'll take his next scoop and also go to offer it up to rang]

You got scared...

[foxicide]

[......


eats this i guess]

You can't annoy me into agreeing with you.

[hasteful]

I'm not trying to.

[mildly, but with a bit of a smile]

... I just think that we live a really long time. It took me eight hundred years to realize that I love Matsu like this, but now that I know what it feels like, I can't imagine not.

But you don't need it either. I love you regardless.