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UWOOO BUZEN UWOOOOOWOW
IM JK ILL CHANGE THIS TO ANOTHER SHITPOST I JUST WANTED IT ON HERE DONT KILL ME DANA
IM JK ILL CHANGE THIS TO ANOTHER SHITPOST I JUST WANTED IT ON HERE DONT KILL ME DANA
IM JK ILL CHANGE THIS TO ANOTHER SHITPOST I JUST WANTED IT ON HERE DONT KILL ME DANA
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[GIVEN THE FACT THAT HE HAS BEEN A VICTIM ON WEEK 2 TWICE NOW, WHERE EXACTLY DOES HE GET THIS CONFIDENCE
but he'll take a little sip of his drink as he shrugs]
The love curse was disorienting. I was probably the first target you saw, so it's fine. I can handle it.
And yesterday - you only acted out because you care, right? You want me to be angrier on my own behalf. [a thoughtful little pause, and he turns the can over in his hands] I don't really know how to do that.
But I know that what Libby-san said made me a little sad... so I appreciate you wanting me to speak up more. That does mean something.
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...he looks down at his drink like he's not sure what to say. he'd rather just think of his actions as selfish and unhinged, because that's all he's ever been called his entire life (for good reason). he doesn't get where this understanding comes from,
but it's not the first time buzen has reached out to him in this way,]
You and D are bad for my ego.
[they keep validating him.... and in turn, rang wonders if he'll grow more unhinged about them, even when he knows none of this will last. that there will be an ending, soon enough. ...he takes another sip, thinks back on what he'd just said -- and recognizes that he didn't actually apologize? so.]
I'm sorry.
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[he sounds a little confused, because he doesn't follow the train of thought, because he's an idiot. but when rang says sorry - buzen just squeezes his shoulder and offers up a smile. it comes with a fond little laugh.]
... I know what it means for you to say that, so I'll accept it. Apology heard, and you're forgiven.
[as easy as breathing]
But it'll be pretty embarrassing for me, if you're apologizing for showing that you care about me in your own way. So I hope you don't actually feel that sorry...
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Ugh.
[UGH!!!]
That's not the part I'm sorry about. [it kills him inside as a local tsundere to admit that he cares, even in insane roundabout ways]
...I meant the part where I attacked you, even knowing what Matsui went through when you were gone.
[ihe really departicled and didn't process any of that,]
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It's okay.
Matsu will get it - he already told me he's not going to hurt you. He's... probably way angrier at Libby-san anyway.
So I doubt you're gonna be on his radar until he processes that.
[if he processes that,]
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No matter what I do here, there's always someone who's more hated than I am. I don't know if I like that.
[he just has to say it out loud? why does that happen? who is he... more importantly.]
...Did you tell him her reason? I got the impression that she didn't say it to him, after trial was over.
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There are things that people deserve to know, when it comes to the people they love.
[like who chose to harm them and why. buzen isn't kind enough to protect people from the consequences of their actions. it's one of the few things that he thinks should always be known, if only because the shroud of mystery is worse.
it does make today taste especially bad.]
I don't blame people though... if they can't think the way that we do.
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Even if no one else understands, you still have each other.
[frankly, everyone else can mind their own business!! bye!!!!]
So let them think what they like. They'll accept the consequences for it, the same way we were forced to.
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[he agrees, and honestly buzen doesn't have a strong opinion on a lot of things. he's kind of a pushover. but this?
this he'll be steadfast on. he turns the can over in his hands for a moment,]
And what do you think about today, Rang? Our consequences. Theirs.
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[it's less of a laugh and more of an exhale,]
I don't think we did anything wrong. Frankly, I'm shocked that they didn't learn anything from the last two trials. They missed D because they didn't press hard enough during strip check, they almost missed Libby because we only checked her hands and feet.
If anything, I'm annoyed that our erasure has frightened them into trying to avoid voting for teams with three people.
[it just shows that they care!!! well maybe they should care less]
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That's up to them. You're right - it'd probably pay to be a little more forceful, but everyone's uncomfortable. You just have to make a strong argument to get them to believe that stripping is for the better, or even just going into the bathrooms or something.
We don't even know if we're right... We won't know until Lam-san and Shen-san get here tomorrow. Maybe everyone's off the mark.
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[no one hounding the triguns hard enough annoyed him so bad,]
It would be funny if we were all wrong. [. . .] But out of all those teams Yuzuriha mentioned, I'd prefer if it was Justice or A Peace. I don't want to think of Sweet Theory killing again, even if Kyoko's behavior seemed suspicious at the end. She didn't even look that exhausted when we found Libby.
[he shrugs]
Or maybe it really was a poison psych again, and we were off the mark from the start.
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[and he looks. tired again at both of these options, sighing faintly as he runs a hand through his hair]
.... at this point, someone's going to end up getting the call if they haven't already. I'm guessing it's going team to team, and then people are taking erasures into their own hands on top of that.
I don't think I have teams that I'd prefer to be doing the erasing. I'm mad it's happening at all.
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[and if it was up to him, he wouldn't have forced ylfa to strip either, so he doesn't really have an accusatory leg to stand on.]
...I didn't mind the Game at first, but it's a different story when the choice to erase was never really up to us.
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[so there's that.]
... but yeah. Looking for who's making the call is part of what Night-san wants us to do, I guess.
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[stop no one deserves to win over killing!!! but rang is like at least she had the gumption. if only more ppl were like yuyu...]
How in the world are we supposed to do that. [GROANS] I don't see how things like roleplaying is helping us.
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Kuwa and I were sent to farm and build roads in an abandoned world devoid of all human life once.
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Why. And who's Kuwa?
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Kuwa's another Gou, though. He's better at farming and stuff... so if you're gonna send anyone, might as well be him.
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Why were you sent to an abandoned world in the first place?
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shrugs again????]
Aruji told us to.
[IT'S REALLY THAT SIMPLE]
I've been sent on missions without much info before, and you kind of just have to trust where you're going. [they did that for paraiso and look how good that one turned out :) ] ... but I dunno, it was a little interesting.
To see a world without humans, because something led to them wiping each other out.
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...And you and your comrade built and farmed things there and then, what? Left?
[JUST TO BUILD STUFF?]
That feels a little like rubbing it in. LIke your Aruji was trying to show you what could happen to your world if you don't protect humans.
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trying to figure out what to admit to here but it's kind of pointless to hide anymore,]
We already know what a world will look like if we don't protect humans. It's ours. We accomplish our missions to protect them, and to try to rebalance things so that they have a chance at a future.
[but he'll hum thoughtfully]
.... I don't know. Maybe it's a weird way of looking at it - but I thought it was pretty hopeful. It's desolate and it's dark and there's no one there but us and some gophers...
But maybe those seeds that Kuwa planted might turn into something. Those roads could be used someday, by someone. Like... even if there's no one there, we left a little bit of something meaningful behind.
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No wonder Matsui had been resolved to continue living, if protecting humanity was what he was made for. What a burden. Rang like I already don't like this Aruji for being a human, but I like them even less now.]
That's very much like you to see it that way. [with hope, and not the foolishness of humans who don't deserve to live.] Even a mountain devastated by fire will regrow someday, so maybe you did leave something meaningful.
But the weight feels a little burdensome, honestly.
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The weight? What do you mean?
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