even if it goes badly, i think i just want him to know, you know? feels like he could stand to hear it more. things don't necessarily have to work out.
but it's still hard not to just take never seeing someone again as an excuse not to say anything i guess.
i don't know why i'm telling you this. you're going to hate it aren't you
don't humans have some type of saying like every week is your last week? and that love is supposed to be hard or something
[he's heard at least. he doesn't have first hand experience or anything for sure]
they're both very annoying but they're not twisted like me they'll recognize your feelings and these annoying effects are back so maybe they'll feel them too
i haven't been around anyone but my coworkers for a pretty long time, so i've kind of been getting used to things again.
[this is separated into two messages because the second one takes a little longer.]
you might be twisted but i don't think you'd be incapable of recognizing them. i just think you seem like you'd probably want to avoid pain. i'm a little similar, a lot of the time; i never said anything, the first time i loved someone, because i was just satisfied to be near them. i was okay with living like that.
it's not really the same, you'd probably be more likely to get a little distance...
[he really seems like the type to push away, instead.]
but she died, and i'd never told her she was loved. i don't know if the people closer to her than me did either. i don't think i want that again.
[this sounds familiar in a way that rang has observed humans who've felt like this before. regret over not saying anything, loving someone at a distance. but it's not something he's personally experienced himself,]
and after you tell them? what's the point if they're going to leave you?
[I THOUGHT I SUBMITTED MY TAG FOR THIS????? i hate it here
Most of the memory doesn't come as a complete surprise, and Rang has to wonder if their discussion had somehow prompted this memory of all memories to materialize. The details though, those were definitely missing. And the shape of Netzach's love is still such a mystery -- a love that takes the form of longing, waiting, and never demanding.
Or maybe it's not that strange, after all.]
Even if she did come back to life, would anything have changed?
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is this a bad idea
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but you might never get to see him again, so why not
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even if it goes badly, i think i just want him to know, you know? feels like he could stand to hear it more. things don't necessarily have to work out.
but it's still hard not to just take never seeing someone again as an excuse not to say anything i guess.
i don't know why i'm telling you this. you're going to hate it aren't you
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i wouldn't blame you if you didn't want to take that chance
rather than an excuse
i'd call it reasonable
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buzen said it's fine but buzen also can't tell i meant both of them
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buzen's annoying like that
he'll always be surprised that people like him
and so will matsui probably
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this would be easier to deal with if it weren't the last week.
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don't humans have some type of saying like
every week is your last week?
and that love is supposed to be hard or something
[he's heard at least. he doesn't have first hand experience or anything for sure]
they're both very annoying but they're not twisted like me
they'll recognize your feelings
and these annoying effects are back so maybe they'll feel them too
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i haven't been around anyone but my coworkers for a pretty long time, so i've kind of been getting used to things again.
[this is separated into two messages because the second one takes a little longer.]
you might be twisted but i don't think you'd be incapable of recognizing them. i just think you seem like you'd probably want to avoid pain. i'm a little similar, a lot of the time; i never said anything, the first time i loved someone, because i was just satisfied to be near them. i was okay with living like that.
it's not really the same, you'd probably be more likely to get a little distance...
[he really seems like the type to push away, instead.]
but she died, and i'd never told her she was loved. i don't know if the people closer to her than me did either. i don't think i want that again.
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and after you tell them?
what's the point if they're going to leave you?
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a lot won't assume things like that. they won't know anyone cares about them if no one says it, you know?
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i don't really think about others that much
[as netzach probably knows]
so stuff about what they're feeling or thinking is beyond me
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they can be pretty hard to read in that way, anyway.
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sometimes they can be.
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where are you, anyway
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i lost track trying to find somewhere the living can't find. where are you?
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i'm at the hotel
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[rang will head over to the hotel to meet netzach anyway, hi netzach]
It's your fault if the living see us.
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[anyway it's every effect week which means: memshare time. the living may not be here, but presumably, pigs somehow are.
what he gets is storytime, more or less. why is netzach the way he is? this probably explains a bit of it.]
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Most of the memory doesn't come as a complete surprise, and Rang has to wonder if their discussion had somehow prompted this memory of all memories to materialize. The details though, those were definitely missing. And the shape of Netzach's love is still such a mystery -- a love that takes the form of longing, waiting, and never demanding.
Or maybe it's not that strange, after all.]
Even if she did come back to life, would anything have changed?