He shouldn't be... I told him I would, before you guys left us. I've... made the same decision I knew he was going to, before it got taken from you both, so I wanted to tell him I'd still think about him.
[the thought that gets shared isn't really a current one. it's like a thought of a thought, of what he said before.
'i think your life is beautiful, too. no matter how long it ends up being. just that you were here, and you loved someone-- that's enough to make it that way.'
[this is very funny to rang bc matsui never told him that he was thinking of offering himself up too but considering who he is, he's not surprised to hear it from netzach now.
maybe he would have been fine with it. he's not sure if he would have offered himself up too, not like netzach and yuzuriha had decided to do.]
You can say that to him again, if you want to be sure.
[for a moment rang looks troubled, then he shrugs.]
He's around here somewhere with Buzen. They haven't been around this weekend -- Buzen was on one of those Thursday missions, and it affected him pretty badly.
[He sits back up and reaches out to poke Netzach in the face. He's both pleased at the sentiment, and also annoyed to hear that Netzach is the same way?]
Enough about her.
[...But I appreciate your feelings about it. Thanks. Sometimes, you keep an insane grudge for like four weeks straight,]
[netzach you are just stoking rang's insane grudge well no -- at this point, anything he hears won't get him madder about it, because he's already angry. and he's learned at this point to stop harping on it, when buzen is out there being mostly fine about it. arthur fist clench.
this answer gets rang to tilt his head, it's been a while, but...]
Because you're tied to her, right? The person who made the Library and kept you alive.
Mhm. We were all supposed to rest at the end of things to begin with, so... it depends on how it all ends. She more or less has full control over the Library, I think it's going to be up to her whether we keep existing.
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[as rang leans back and lounges, as much as he can while he's on a bed,]
Who have you been missing the most?
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[man!!]
Don't worry about it.
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[hehe]
Is it Zelda?
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[i mean, i do miss her, but i got to spend more time with her...]
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[still matsui.]
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rang, propping himself up to look at Netzach, surprised.]
He'll be surprised to hear that you missed him.
[Knowing him, he'll probably feel guilty too. But I like that Netzach missed him. This is why I like Yuneyuze more than others.]
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[the thought that gets shared isn't really a current one. it's like a thought of a thought, of what he said before.
'i think your life is beautiful, too. no matter how long it ends up being. just that you were here, and you loved someone-- that's enough to make it that way.'
i meant it. i don't know if he knows i did.]
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maybe he would have been fine with it. he's not sure if he would have offered himself up too, not like netzach and yuzuriha had decided to do.]
You can say that to him again, if you want to be sure.
[for a moment rang looks troubled, then he shrugs.]
He's around here somewhere with Buzen. They haven't been around this weekend -- Buzen was on one of those Thursday missions, and it affected him pretty badly.
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They were? You still have those here...?
[is he okay?
he looks like he's thinking of getting right the fuck up and going]
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Rang shrugs from where he is on the bed.]
He's fine physically, but you know how they are. [netzach ur CYOAS] Most of us who died early went on one on this side, actually.
We didn't get any messages after ours either, so we have nothing to show for it.
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I don't get why you guys still have to do it, if you don't even get information or anything...
[wait, me and yuzu died before getting anything this week too, didn't we?]
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That's a question I hope we'll get an answer to. Whoever's behind them, that is.
[So Matsui and I can kill whoever's responsible. wow what unhinged thoughts that will ultimately be fruitless,]
You can message whoever was with you if you're curious.
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[a little chill. the tiniest amount of chill. please]
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[How is that fair? RANG, COMPLAINING]
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I didn't know what she said about why she chose him until later. Lambda told me-- when I talked to Libby, she didn't wanna talk about it.
[and i trusted her too much at the time, i guess. i was wrong.]
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Libby didn't tell Buzen either. Just that she was sorry and that he mattered.
[Not enough to avoid killing him.]
She only told me because I made it seem like I didn't care about what happened.
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[it shouldn't have been buzen. she shouldn't have done that to all of you.]
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Enough about her.
[...But I appreciate your feelings about it. Thanks. Sometimes, you keep an insane grudge for like four weeks straight,]
What do you mean about it applying to you too?
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Lambda said it was more or less because of what he is. Because he didn't know for sure he'd keep existing for a long time, if he got to go back.
She knew that I don't know if I'll get to keep living when our work's done, either.
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this answer gets rang to tilt his head, it's been a while, but...]
Because you're tied to her, right? The person who made the Library and kept you alive.
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What about you? Do you want to keep existing?
[Buzen always made it seem like something he'd never get to have.]
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[i want him to get that too.]
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I didn't think you were doing a bad job of it before.
[But if that's what you want, then you should have it.]
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