netzach

[foxicide]

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[abstractart]

...yeah. I know.

I don't get why you guys still have to do it, if you don't even get information or anything...

[wait, me and yuzu died before getting anything this week too, didn't we?]

[foxicide]

[(mods voice) so many cyoas]

That's a question I hope we'll get an answer to. Whoever's behind them, that is.

[So Matsui and I can kill whoever's responsible. wow what unhinged thoughts that will ultimately be fruitless,]

You can message whoever was with you if you're curious.

[abstractart]

The answer doesn't always have to be murder.

[a little chill. the tiniest amount of chill. please]

[foxicide]

I haven't murdered anyone on your side or over here. Shenhe got to kill Gerard, but I left Libby alone.

[How is that fair? RANG, COMPLAINING]

[abstractart]

... I guess I'd have understood it, if you did.

I didn't know what she said about why she chose him until later. Lambda told me-- when I talked to Libby, she didn't wanna talk about it.

[and i trusted her too much at the time, i guess. i was wrong.]

[foxicide]

[at that, rang smiles, though it doesn't reach his eyes.]

Libby didn't tell Buzen either. Just that she was sorry and that he mattered.

[Not enough to avoid killing him.]

She only told me because I made it seem like I didn't care about what happened.

[abstractart]

What she said-- it would've applied to me too. She knew. I don't know why...

[it shouldn't have been buzen. she shouldn't have done that to all of you.]

[foxicide]

[He sits back up and reaches out to poke Netzach in the face. He's both pleased at the sentiment, and also annoyed to hear that Netzach is the same way?]

Enough about her.

[...But I appreciate your feelings about it. Thanks. Sometimes, you keep an insane grudge for like four weeks straight,]

What do you mean about it applying to you too?

[abstractart]

[he makes a face when he's poked, but aw, rang's thoughts.]

Lambda said it was more or less because of what he is. Because he didn't know for sure he'd keep existing for a long time, if he got to go back.

She knew that I don't know if I'll get to keep living when our work's done, either.

[foxicide]

[netzach you are just stoking rang's insane grudge well no -- at this point, anything he hears won't get him madder about it, because he's already angry. and he's learned at this point to stop harping on it, when buzen is out there being mostly fine about it. arthur fist clench.

this answer gets rang to tilt his head, it's been a while, but...]

Because you're tied to her, right? The person who made the Library and kept you alive.

[abstractart]

Mhm. We were all supposed to rest at the end of things to begin with, so... it depends on how it all ends. She more or less has full control over the Library, I think it's going to be up to her whether we keep existing.

[foxicide]

[at that, rang looks at netzach, then]

What about you? Do you want to keep existing?

[Buzen always made it seem like something he'd never get to have.]

[abstractart]

...yeah, I do. I wanna live. I think- being here gave me a better idea of how to really be alive, too.

[i want him to get that too.]

[foxicide]

[Rang isn't used to the idea of wanting to live, but he can't say that it's bad to hear it from Netzach now. He looks a little amused,]

I didn't think you were doing a bad job of it before.

[But if that's what you want, then you should have it.]

[abstractart]

I hadn't been outside in over a decade, man, it wasn't exactly a great job.

[and that's only if you just count it as ten years.]

[foxicide]

I meant over here, even though you always seemed to be fine with the idea of dying.

[NETZACH!!! but rang isn't upset about it,]

Ten years and counting, huh? That's a long time for humans.

[abstractart]

I told you, right? I'm not.

[wait, did i...? it's been a while.]

Technically it was ten thousand and something... but that was like, all in cycles. I don't know if it counts.

[foxicide]

[at that, his expression shifts a little, though it's brief.]

Cycles? Like time loops?

[abstractart]

...Yeah, pretty much like that. Kind of, uh... time loops inside other, longer time loops...?

[foxicide]

[...Time loops again.]

I see. I don't see why they shouldn't count. You remember most of them, right?

[abstractart]

[again...?]

I remember enough now, I think. It's-- a lot of them were just about the same.

[foxicide]

[hmm]

Buzen, Nahida, and Gerard went on a mission like that. They kept on looping.

[he won't say whether it was bad or not but he thinks netzach will guess since he mentioned that buzen isn't doing fine,]

[abstractart]

-uh, was it-- was it in a facility?

[say no, please not l corp again-]

[foxicide]

[he shakes his head]

They were on a ship with other humans. They had to figure out which of them was infected by a monster -- Gnos? Gnosia? Some loops they were murdered by it, in others they were the Gnosia and killed others.

[abstractart]

[not my memories again, then.

the relief from that is short lived, though.]

... it's... it's pretty rough to go through. Especially if you're aware you're looping.