Rang watches with interest, because that's the kind of person he is. But he doesn't relish in the watching, blood and death and ruin don't excite him, as much as he claims otherwise. Rather, he's interested in Hikari, the rage running through him -- because he's never seen Hikari like this before,
does it take tragedy like this to make him this way? death to all his loved ones? did hikari even have an ounce of fury and rage in him like this when Guifei killed him? thoughts to ponder....
he can't help but be swept up as the memory unfolds. he's never known the death of a father, but hatred against a brother... he knows that. he understands that. he feels almost like a voyeur, being so invested -- the sharp disappointment cutting through him when the memory ends,]
[can you please ponder normal thoughts for once rang
hikari takes a few moments to recover from the memory, trying to sort out his thoughts again the moment he's freed from reliving trauma that wasn't all that long ago. he looks at rang like he's not sure he even wants to answer, wants to know rang's reasons for asking, before resignation settles in his expression.]
... My father's retainer arrived to help me; to buy me time from Mugen's men. [a pang of grief strikes his face, because he doesn't know whether or not benkei survived.] I fled the country like a coward.
[as mugen always said he was, perhaps.]
Though the fact remains that Mugen cannot be allowed to sit on the throne, so long as he intends to drown the world in a sea of blood. I meant it when I said I would reclaim the country from his hands.
[rang? not being asshole? no i kid i love him. anyway, hikari looks away, apparently unable to respond to that. rationally, hikari knows rang is right, but the shame of fleeing that night still lingers, all the more knowing he had to leave someone behind, that he couldn't give any of his slaughtered people a burial, that mugen has since then gone on to commit more horrors.
so he disregards the comment altogether, letting it fall into silence. ultimately, he settles for a simple—]
I will return, with my friends by my side. [if they get out of here, first.] And I will cut Mugen down, for the sake of the future.
[at this point, it is neither contempt nor rage that guides his hand, but an acknowledgment of what must be done, pragmatically.]
[DON'T LOVE HIM HE IS INSANE (aki voice) INANE also he notices how hikari doesn't even respond? rude? this trying to make someone feel better thing is harder than it looks...
and probably impossible, considering those chain of events,]
We both want to kill our brothers -- [don't assign want to hikari] but I guess for different reasons... Does that make us the same? Different?
he also has no idea what the FCK to say to this, because it feels awkward to be grouped in with rang's grudge against his own brother but it also feels arrogant to be like nah man we're different.]
... It is not something I would wish for another to have in common. [...] Though there is no love lost between me and mine. I am horrified at the lengths he went to, but Mugen's opinion of me has never been a surprise.
[and even though hikari isn't completely sure that he can say that he hates mugen, even now, he knows that he has never loved him either. in that regard, he and rang are very different.]
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Rang watches with interest, because that's the kind of person he is. But he doesn't relish in the watching, blood and death and ruin don't excite him, as much as he claims otherwise. Rather, he's interested in Hikari, the rage running through him -- because he's never seen Hikari like this before,
does it take tragedy like this to make him this way? death to all his loved ones? did hikari even have an ounce of fury and rage in him like this when Guifei killed him? thoughts to ponder....
he can't help but be swept up as the memory unfolds. he's never known the death of a father, but hatred against a brother... he knows that. he understands that. he feels almost like a voyeur, being so invested -- the sharp disappointment cutting through him when the memory ends,]
What happened after?
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hikari takes a few moments to recover from the memory, trying to sort out his thoughts again the moment he's freed from reliving trauma that wasn't all that long ago. he looks at rang like he's not sure he even wants to answer, wants to know rang's reasons for asking, before resignation settles in his expression.]
... My father's retainer arrived to help me; to buy me time from Mugen's men. [a pang of grief strikes his face, because he doesn't know whether or not benkei survived.] I fled the country like a coward.
[as mugen always said he was, perhaps.]
Though the fact remains that Mugen cannot be allowed to sit on the throne, so long as he intends to drown the world in a sea of blood. I meant it when I said I would reclaim the country from his hands.
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Now that he's no longer able to see the memory, he watches Hikari instead, the minute expressions on his face as he replies, hmmmm]
There is no salvation for those who won't save themselves.
[the words sound so very out of character for rang, and they should -- it sounds a little like he's quoting someone else,]
I'd call it a strategic retreat, rather than running away.
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so he disregards the comment altogether, letting it fall into silence. ultimately, he settles for a simple—]
I will return, with my friends by my side. [if they get out of here, first.] And I will cut Mugen down, for the sake of the future.
[at this point, it is neither contempt nor rage that guides his hand, but an acknowledgment of what must be done, pragmatically.]
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and probably impossible, considering those chain of events,]
We both want to kill our brothers -- [don't assign want to hikari] but I guess for different reasons... Does that make us the same? Different?
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he also has no idea what the FCK to say to this, because it feels awkward to be grouped in with rang's grudge against his own brother but it also feels arrogant to be like nah man we're different.]
... It is not something I would wish for another to have in common. [...] Though there is no love lost between me and mine. I am horrified at the lengths he went to, but Mugen's opinion of me has never been a surprise.
[and even though hikari isn't completely sure that he can say that he hates mugen, even now, he knows that he has never loved him either. in that regard, he and rang are very different.]
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Really? I like it though.
[THAT THEY BOTH HAVE BROTHER TRAUMA!!!! at least, this no longer wants to make rang stab hikari for seeing a personal memory,]
Yeon's the same way. He always thought I was a burden to him.
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also this is so depressing, rang. once again, hikari has no idea what to say to this.]
... But you loved him still.
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Does that change anything?
[it changes a lot actually]
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[hikari already knows half of court is going to hate him the moment he says he supports equality]
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I guess a headache's better than losing their head. I wonder if they'll be grateful though?
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I have no need for their gratitude, so long as they ultimately understand why I intend to break tradition.
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