I'm all for apologies, but you know when you demand them there's a chance it only comes because it's being pressured out of someone, not because they're actually sorry. They can be empty, instead.
And I'm trying to explain those consequences, not just for Matsui, but for myself to.
[he sounds angrier the more gentle Vash sounds,]
I was the one accused of not caring about him, just because I thought he should have kept his grief. Even though I was grieving for Buzen too, but I guess that didn't matter to her at the time.
[ The thing is, Vash would only let death come if it came to him. No regrets if it did, but he wouldn't throw his life away. So like... If he's dying already and going to die, no regrets. If he isn't dying but his life is threatened, he's going to try to survive.
Sometimes, things are complicated. ]
If the threat are alarming and grave enough, then... I guess...
[ He would erase someone, but he looks more somber about this than scandalized. ]
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Is that all right?
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And if I explained why? Would they listen?
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[ Vash is being sincere, overall. ]
It's up to you.
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If you tell me who cursed Matsui's grief away, and then his bloodlust away, then I'll explain to them why it hurt Matsui so much.
I'm not going to make you the messenger for something they're responsible for. Unless it was you.
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[ He's saying this as gently as possible here since Rang seems very invested despite not being the one cursed. ]
I was thinking more why they shouldn't have cursed at that time and the consequences of their actions.
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[he sounds angrier the more gentle Vash sounds,]
I was the one accused of not caring about him, just because I thought he should have kept his grief. Even though I was grieving for Buzen too, but I guess that didn't matter to her at the time.
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[ If that makes Rang angrier, then Vash will visually shrug. Sorry, man. You are an emotional rollercoaster and that's a bomb during emotion share.
Anyway, ]
I can talk to my team and see if I can encourage them to talk to Matsui.
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[and then they all blow up and that doesn't happen]
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[ And we exploded. ]
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rang just stares at vash like he's concentrating very hard]
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Watches him do that. ]
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I can't touch you like this, so I just imagined punching you.
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For what? It's not like I'm doing anything.
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[ignores that vash isn't human]
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[ Finger wiggling emotions to gesture tickling. ]
You hate me that much?
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[and rang died and never got to see a sad vash memshare]
Would you have ever erased?
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[ Poor Rang with his assumptions... We can't even memshare is the saddest thing. ]
... If the stakes were the same where it's for our personal revival, I don't think so. I accepted if death came for me, I wouldn't struggle.
[ Sometimes... Peace is nice, but murder games are stupid. ]
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rang eyes him,]
Punches you.
[That's for Shenhe. MOVING ON --]
What if you got the call?
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There wasn't much left for me back home.
[ The thing is, Vash would only let death come if it came to him. No regrets if it did, but he wouldn't throw his life away. So like... If he's dying already and going to die, no regrets. If he isn't dying but his life is threatened, he's going to try to survive.
Sometimes, things are complicated. ]
If the threat are alarming and grave enough, then... I guess...
[ He would erase someone, but he looks more somber about this than scandalized. ]