... It's a difficult question to answer. It would be a lie to say I don't have regrets, and there are countless lives that I wish I could've protected.
[Mother. Jin Mei. My friends...]
But there is much in the present that I wouldn't want to give up either. [The people I've met.] And though it hurts to think of the past, I believe that nothing is gained by obsessing over it.
it's a very hikari answer, and because it is, his emotions are fond... while also very focused, in that he's watching him like a cat would, waiting for something to happen.]
What about here? If you could redo it all from that first week. Would you let Guifei kill you, knowing what you know now?
Knowing what I do now... I would fight back, regardless. If anything, I suppose I would make more of an attempt to leave evidence—at the time, I was focused solely on surviving, rather than getting her caught.
[he takes a sip of his drink. he wouldn't have that much of a moral issue with killing yang guifei then, since it would be in self-defence, even if he doesn't necessarily regret not doing so—because picking peace first is also a matter of principle.
but...]
... My chances of getting away with it would be low in the first week. I am... not a skilled liar, and so early in the game—assuming that I am the only one to retain memories of the future in this scenario—it would be a heavy burden to ask of my team.
[deliberately causing a scapegoat is also another matter, on a moral level, for which he has no easy answer.]
If the first week would end with both me and Yang Guifei dying one way or another, then considering how the rest of the Game turns out... the only merit to switching positions with Yang Guifei would be if, after trial, I told my team the truth and placed what was Froggystyle's burden on them instead.
[It becomes a matter of choosing between different suffering for those who remain.]
which also doesn't surprise Rang, and anyway he asked the question in the first place to know Hikari's thoughts? also, the answer interests him.... au building....]
You should tell our team instead. We're a better choice compared to your team or Froggystyle.
[he doesn't even mean it to be insulting for once... he really thinks bdsm team would be great killers]
It would be an insult not to tell my own team. [To treat them as people who must be sheltered.] Considering that most of the burden wouldn't even fall on my shoulders, I should not be the one to decide for them what they can or cannot handle.
[though maybe in this au he told go to sleep to work with bdsm. who knows! though with another incline of his head,]
... Back then, would you have even believed me, had I told you?
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[Otherwise, I'd have done it.]
What about you? Would you want to go back in time and change things?
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... It's a difficult question to answer. It would be a lie to say I don't have regrets, and there are countless lives that I wish I could've protected.
[Mother. Jin Mei. My friends...]
But there is much in the present that I wouldn't want to give up either. [The people I've met.] And though it hurts to think of the past, I believe that nothing is gained by obsessing over it.
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it's a very hikari answer, and because it is, his emotions are fond... while also very focused, in that he's watching him like a cat would, waiting for something to happen.]
What about here? If you could redo it all from that first week. Would you let Guifei kill you, knowing what you know now?
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Knowing what I do now... I would fight back, regardless. If anything, I suppose I would make more of an attempt to leave evidence—at the time, I was focused solely on surviving, rather than getting her caught.
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You wouldn't try to kill her?
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but...]
... My chances of getting away with it would be low in the first week. I am... not a skilled liar, and so early in the game—assuming that I am the only one to retain memories of the future in this scenario—it would be a heavy burden to ask of my team.
[deliberately causing a scapegoat is also another matter, on a moral level, for which he has no easy answer.]
If the first week would end with both me and Yang Guifei dying one way or another, then considering how the rest of the Game turns out... the only merit to switching positions with Yang Guifei would be if, after trial, I told my team the truth and placed what was Froggystyle's burden on them instead.
[It becomes a matter of choosing between different suffering for those who remain.]
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which also doesn't surprise Rang, and anyway he asked the question in the first place to know Hikari's thoughts? also, the answer interests him.... au building....]
You should tell our team instead. We're a better choice compared to your team or Froggystyle.
[he doesn't even mean it to be insulting for once... he really thinks bdsm team would be great killers]
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...]
It would be an insult not to tell my own team. [To treat them as people who must be sheltered.] Considering that most of the burden wouldn't even fall on my shoulders, I should not be the one to decide for them what they can or cannot handle.
[though maybe in this au he told go to sleep to work with bdsm. who knows! though with another incline of his head,]
... Back then, would you have even believed me, had I told you?
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to rang's credit, he takes a moment to think about this.]
I think I would have, because it would have been from you. I might have called you funny, but I know you weren't delusional.
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... You have my gratitude, then. Though this scenario is only hypothetical to begin with.
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You don't have to thank me over something imaginary. But I guess I like that part of you.
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Imaginary or not, I appreciate that you would believe my words.