MY HIKARI

[foxicide]

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[he blinks, turning to look at rang, but he does stop.]

What are you doing here, Rang?

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I felt like following you.

[like this is a reasonable reason to reason with,]

You're the one who's been here the longest without your team. How do you feel?

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[...]

Is it selfish to say that I wish I had been there with them?

[but it's as rang says—he's been without his team for so long, and thus the reverse is also true. at this point, it might just be sentimental to say he ever really counted as a member, when go to sleep has functioned as a three-person team without him far longer than not.]

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[rang can't read minds, but he thinks he knows enough of hikari now to guess at what he's thinking about,]

I know a lot about being selfish. [...] I wouldn't say wanting to be with them counts, especially when you didn't erase someone and get caught.

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[it feels selfish to think of his own wishes in this moment, when ultimately he's not the one most impacted by the results.]

Mm. [...] Well, regardless of how I feel, it will not help them now.

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You can feel things that don't help anyone, you know.

[be insane, hikari -- no, just be... he's not sure what hikari should be more of. he can't really imagine hikari being any different than who he is,]

Nahida would say the same thing, I bet.

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[sometimes you have been raised to not express feelings that don't help]

... She likely would, yes.

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[what about love]

I know her as well as you do. [...] But I know that she'll be happy to see you.

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[WHAT ABOUT LOVE?]

Mm. At least now I can give her the apology I wasn't able to, back then.

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[does he feel it....]

You really do fit perfectly with that team. You, Nahida, Kaveh, always apologizing. Well, maybe not Kaveh.

[kaveh just fought with rang all the time]

Why 'Go To Sleep'?

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[who knows...

he blinks.]

You mean why the name?

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[he nods, maybe rang wants to hear one of the few memories hikari has of his team]

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[he glances away, looking a little embarrassed.]

... Nahida suggested it as a reprimand to Kaveh, for his sleeping habits. I thought she was being serious...

[...]

Kaveh was quite gracious about the mistake, at least.

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[HELP?

there's a beat and then rang busts out laughing,]

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[presses the back of his hand against his mouth to partially cover his face in shame........]

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[eventually he STOPS LAUGHING... wobbling a little on the spot because laughter takes so much energy wow,]

I didn't think you'd be the Buzen of your team. He did the exact same thing.

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Mm, Matsui told me about the mistake...

[also sir your wobbling]

... Are you all right?

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Just tired. Laughing makes me feel worse.

[but he doesn't sound accusatory,]

Don't say sorry, or I'll collapse out of annoyance.

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[opens his mouth

freezes]

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[his lips twitch like he's about to laugh again but he's repressing it with all his heart,]

Are you going to tell Nahida to put on a maid outfit?

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I'm... I'm not going to tell her that, no.

[HIKARI DOESN'T EVEN WANT TO WEAR THE BUTLER OUTFIT HE DOES IT OUT OF PEER PRESSURE]

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[HIKARIIIII]

What are you going to say when she asks you why you're serving her?

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[.................]

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[:3c????]

She's going to look to you, you know? Since you're teammates, and you've been here the longest.

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Nahida can be quite independent, so I don't think that'll be a concern...