[he didn't actually expect buzen to answer this seriously, so his reply catches him off-guard. his emotions are conflicted, and he doesn't like that they are.

this would be much simpler if no one cared about him, buzen or lambda or matsui or d or the countless others who still want to speak to him. if he knew this would happen, then he would have killed rin himself. at least then he'd get to ruin it all first.

like for the citadel where buzen and matsui live. sooner or later, he'd ruin that too.]

They really live such short lives.

[humans. he hates that he likes some of them too.]

But I'm not that much different from them, in the end. I'll probably still die before you and Lambda and Nahida.