I'm happy you care that much about Matsu. I really am. And even if I don't know what to do with it sometimes, I am happy that you care about me too.
But if you care about Matsu more than yourself, you know how bad that'll hurt him if he's the one at fault for something that happens to you. He might not be able to carry that weight. I can and I will.
[buzen carries everything heavy so other people don't have to, even if right now the sheer volume of everything that he did is slamming hard into him, making his footing stagger and his heart ache.]
But it's going to make me mad because I'll always want you to fight back and treasure yourself more than me - because I can't treasure you that much, even though I want to.
[i don't want you to be another reason for me to hate myself]
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I'm happy you care that much about Matsu. I really am. And even if I don't know what to do with it sometimes, I am happy that you care about me too.
But if you care about Matsu more than yourself, you know how bad that'll hurt him if he's the one at fault for something that happens to you. He might not be able to carry that weight. I can and I will.
[buzen carries everything heavy so other people don't have to, even if right now the sheer volume of everything that he did is slamming hard into him, making his footing stagger and his heart ache.]
But it's going to make me mad because I'll always want you to fight back and treasure yourself more than me - because I can't treasure you that much, even though I want to.
[i don't want you to be another reason for me to hate myself]