You should've lived. I was the problem. I should've been broken, I should've been found.

Then you all would've been okay.

[and this is where his thoughts get clearer, more solidified.

because the longer he's had to think about it, the more he realized that he was nothing more than a weapon. it's exactly as he told rang - it's better to have this form, to be trusted, because it makes completing the mission easier. when no one suspects him. when everyone thinks that he's just doing his best. and maybe he is, but his best includes killing everyone he loves once he's sure he has to.

and what is the grand difference between a gnosia sent to destroy humanity and a sword who kills humans to protect humanity anyway

so maybe buzen got it all wrong somewhere by wishing for impossible things. maybe he shouldn't have done that all

maybe i shouldn't want to exist ]